I want

I want to read a book "Red tea" by Paul Harris Daniel. New film by my favorite contemporary director, Bala, based on this novel.
I'm not fan by nature, but movies that Bala made are awesome:
"Sethu" (1999) - 8 of 10,
"Nandhaa" (2001) - 10 of 10,
"Pithamagan" (2003) - 9 of 10,
"Naan Kadavul" (2009) - 100 of 10,
"Avan Ivan" (2011) - 7 of 10.
Bala is the man who I deeply respect.

Waiting for "Paradesi" (2013)...

Recently I cried so much. My eyes are bad. My eyesight are worse and worse. I'm afraid that I'll be blind in few years. Fuck. I hate it.
I don't know what am I writing. My language skills are dying. Or it never exists. I'm dummy girl in stupid world. That is conclusion of all my life.

Truth be told

Truth be told, my life is fucking shit.

Strong Poison by Dorothy L. Sayers

It's sweet book. I mean it. Really. Peter, Harriet, I love you both so much! I'm waiting for your wedding, my kittens!)))
Ok, let's run away from this CUTE stuff and let's write something with common sense inside. This book is good. No doubts. I like twenties and thirties of 20th century. Fashion, dresses, jazz. Style. In style. I can make more wordy description, but I wanna go to bed and sleep, that's why I say only "I'm in love". In love with this beautiful epoch and in love with this beautiful book full of humour, funny phrases, interesting individuals and hilarious folk. Go with it. Meantime I go to bed.

My job: random thoughts

I'm office girl. Just office girl. Office girl who do all stupid paperwork. Freaking amazing. People around me sometimes are kinda creepy. Howls, angry comments and more worse things are annoying parts of my everyday routine. I'm working, ok? Making money. But it's SO stupid. Absolutely stupid. Damn it.

Today I had little conversation with our CEO. (Actually there're two CEOs in our enterprise, but I never had talk with other man.) He questioned me about my knowledge of english and so on.  I answered: "Medium". May be it was a My Big Opportunity, but I fucked it up. As I always do. I'm a dunce. I'm thinking about TOEFL. I had been thought about TOEFL for a long time. It's true. But there's big difference between 'thinking' and "making". When my dreams come true...

tbc

Please

Our tiny, shameful and funny novel,
Little story about rage and regrets...
Please accept that I tried pretty well,
That you couldn't get me out of the mess,
Please remember that our winter is gone,
That it's awesome and it's kinda sad,
That may be we'll be never alone -
Please accept and please don't be so mad.
I accept that it'll always be the same,
I accept that everything's gonna be swept,
Please come here and whisper my name,
Please - and we'll make our first step.

Our step to eternity.
( 22.05.2012)

Only one way

There's only one way -
One path through dying stars,
One place for us,
One hour for our lives,
One sorrowful day
For all funny lies,
One song for all hateful and desperate times,
One crowded room
For our lonely cries.

Did you forget
   about your dreams,
About dirty thoughts
   and beautiful screams?
How many people did you dissect?
What are you wishing for?
What did you expect?

You know nothing.
Your head's full of steam.

So what?
Why are you trying to stickle?
Why are you looking for encouraging beam
In our familiar emptiness?
Why now?

There's only one way.
Go.
Don't look to the sides.
Don't look back.
And then you'll find your door into summer.
(23.03.2012)